Times change,

People change,

Feelings change,

The only thing that doesn't....

Change

Had a fulfilling weekend.

Friday was spent "nua-ing" at home, with a special Mother & Daughter company.

Caught the movie 21 on Saturday.

Quite a nice and interesting movie, but kinda draggy.

6 poppies outta 10.




I'm contented with what I get to have now.

Have been feeling over the moon these days.

Nothing can explain the euphoria in me.

I couldn't stop smiling to myself.

Even the monthly mood swings can do nothing about that.

No more mood swings for this month, no more "pek cek -ness"

=)









I just wanna bask in this uber sweetness,

at least, for now with VFCC.

=)










On the other hand, I can't wait for this Thursday to meet up with my dearest Zhu Dearie.

For some serious "KTV-ing".

No one can predict the future,
but I believe in working hard to make things work.

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How do you feel, when you've lost your way, and you're all alone?

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My skin is like a map
Of where my heart has been
And I cant hide the marks
Its not a negative thing
So I let down my guard
Drop my defences down by my clothes
I'm learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily
So be gentle when you handle me
Theres a mark you leave
Like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily
Can't scratch the surface
Without moving me underneath
I bruise easily
I bruise easily

I found your fingerprints
On a glass of wine
Do you know you're leaving them
All over this heart of mine too
But if I never take this leap of faith
I'll never know
So im learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow

Anyone who can touch you
Can hurt you or heal you
Anyone who can reach you
Can love you or leave you

So be gentle...

I bruise easily
So be gentle when you handle me
Theres a mark you leave
Like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily
Can't scratch the surface
Without moving me underneath
I bruise easily
I bruise easily

I bruise easily
I bruise easily

Last weekend...

Sometimes, its good to watch lame movies. It makes me laugh.

But I guessed, it was the companion that matters more.

=)

When night falls........

How do you feel?

Been feeling over the moon these days.

My mathematics had always suck when I was in secondary school.

Now comes ---------- > BUSINESS MATHEMATICS

I'm so dead.

Tuition teacher online.

=)

The spastic Missy Piggy.

theninetyeighthday

my blog is getting boring.

i know.



love is just amazing,

i'm speechless



if, if only i really could make time stop..

whatisaidwastrueandiswearuponthat

theninetysixthday

if only time didn't had to came to a standstill

if only i could still be embraced by this warmth

if only i didn't had to depart from your grasp

and, how i wished for that very moment,

the earth would stop revolving

time would stop

i really cherished that moment

it was the best i could ever had asked for now

and i hoped the very best would happen in time to come

如果说
我真的愿意
等待这段时间
等待你的归来
你会不会再一次相信我
你会不会再给我们彼此多一次机会

Which Zodiac am I most compatible with?

Click to enlarge

-_-"

can believe or not?

you tell me?

i can feel the responsibility on me getting heavier and heavier

and its gonna increase as time goes by

i'm not ready at all

to be frank, i'm scared

i really am



tears are flowing uncontrollably

i thought it has already been under control

but apparently its still not

i guessed, its all nothing but just a beautiful dream



i'm tired

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i wanna run away

its too much for me to take
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I feel like getting outta here.

So not being appreciated.

Isn't it irritating when some people blogged in the exact same way as you do which they never did in the past?

But luckily my content is not as childish, in self denial and self inflict hurt.

Missy Piggy is shifting soon!

=)

Love?

I love what my cousin said on her blog.

"to me, the greatest act of love is to respect the other party’s decision without holding him/her back, even though it means immense hurt on your part. to be cliche, the greatest act of love is to wish the other party happiness and watch him/her move on, while you struggle to cope with the adjustments in your new single life. those who have been through this know that it’s easier said than done."

"very often after break ups, we go through cycles of depression…For weeks or even months, we try to live life per normal, we act strong in front of others, we try to stay happy and cheerful… but when we are alone, we sink into depression and tears just flow uncontrollably… this period of emotion roller coaster is the toughest i guess, especially we see our other halves adjusting very well with their new found freedom/new found love."

And she's spot on.

Its been 3 months. I guess, its time to get my courage out and face the fact. 3 months. Its a fact already. Although it still does hurts badly, I'm trying to walk through this. I'm learning to love myself more, because I've got more things to accomplish rather than begging him to come back to me. I want my life back.

And as a matter of fact, I did respect his decision. I let him made the decision, even though I was really reluctant to end like that. I was caught off guard totally, I was devasted. But I still let him go. I don't blame him. Because, in a relationship, there really isn't any right or wrong, it all depends on how people look at things. Everyone has got different perceptions to every certain things.

And I know he has his own reasons. And he did wat he should as a boyfriend. He was the only one who really treated me like a human I should say. He's always there for me, nag me like he's my father, or rather even more naggy than my father. But whatever he did, he has my interests at heart, just like my father. And I love my father, and of course HIM too.

Some of my friends said that he's right in doing this, because its fair to me and he really have no choice, while some said he's a bastard, selfish, only think about himself. Blah, blah, blah. I don't blame anyone who tells me anything bad, because its from their perceptions and experiences they had or came across with.

But no matter how many people I listened to. I still believe in myself, believe in what I see, hear, understand and feel throughout our time together. I believe in him. Because the relationship was between me and him. Just the 2 of us. I know best about everything that has happened. But I admit I did had my doubts, and its always the love that I have for him, helped me to clear those doubts away.

Since day 1, I've never had a tinge of hatred towards the break up issue. I was upset for the first few weeks. Then I slowly wake myself up, with the help of all the darlings around me. I really appreciate that. And to prove how much I appreciate them, I tried to put that smile back on my face. And I'm starting to get better at that.


What's your definition of love then?

Many times, we always hear people saying, if you really love him/her, seeing them happy, will make you happy too.

Is that really the case? I don't know. I really don't.

The happiness I feel when I see my loved one happy is actually a mixture of feelings. A mixture of happiness because being able to see him smile and hear him laugh, heartache because of not being able to share the happiness with him, jealousy because it seems he's coping with things well compared to me.

Its just practically a very funny mixture of feelings though.

But ultimately I really want him to be happy, because I tried putting myself in his shoes. I guess he wouldn't want to see me unhappy and stress. At least right now, he's happy, he's enjoying himself. He can go to work without having to worry about me. I know I'm a hassle. I'm a troublesome girlfriend. Thus being with me adds on to the stress he already has been facing. I will be happy for him, because thats what I really want him to be.

Overall, my definition of love is quite simple.

You first have to love yourself in order to be worthy of other's love.


And I'm working hard on that now.

=)

4am in the morning.

And I still can't sleep.

I've got like a million things on my mind.

Tried not thinking bout them, but still.. to no avail.

How how how??

My eye bags... makes me look shiatty.

I'm feeling....

happy?
upset?
relieved?
angry??
contented?
disappointed?

apparently.... it seems to be all of the above.

我如何假装
我心里不再有你
沉溺后清醒
你却是异常的平静
习惯慢慢失忆
这样就能转移自己

theninetiethday

WoootSsSS!!

Missy Piggy passed her final theory test today on first try!

I'm so proud of myself! *blehz*

I still thought I would have flunk it.



After that, took a train over to BaoBei's house.

And then cabbed over to granny's.

How could we not remember da mother & son camwhore sessions?

TeeHee~

On the way to Mummy's house.

The 2 important people in my life.

=)

While waiting for that dearie slut.

PS's Mac...

Then KungFu Panda with QDYRJKZ.

Its a really funny movie.

Couldn't stop laughing!

BaoBei was laughing the loudest in the cinema!

And precious Keidi ger slept after awhile.

Keidi's uber cute!

BaoBei & his Julia Mummy

Headed home after the movie.

Wanted to join them to Rog's place to watch the 12am match.

But BaoBei fell asleep in the car, so decided to head home instead.

ECP later with Darling FaFa!!!!!!

Oh! And ya.. Happy Daddy's Day to all daddies!

Although many people focus on Mums more, for me, its Daddy's Day more.

Happy Daddy's Day Dad!

Love ya!!

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howcansomebodysattitudejuzchangeov'renight
iguessedwerebothjuzsocontradicted

theeightyninthday

time check - 3 30am

and I still can't sleep at all

Final theory test at 11am later

my mind is in a whirl

I made the wrong choice, asked the wrong question
that kinda pushed him further away again.

Missy Piggy is still not feeling good

perhapsstilllivinginselfdenial

eachtimeucallmyheartskipeachtimeuhangupmyheartached

icouldwaitnireallywanna

backtowherewewereagain

reminiscenceofthoseultrasweetmoments

Today....

JoJo's mood = Super Stinky.

Missy Piggy is me.

I just wanna be alone.

I just wanna do things alone.

The reason for being missing... for a mere 6 days?

-------- > Procrastination <--------

And plus the fact that I've not had the feel to blog + my "nua-ness".

Exams are finally over, second sem starting on Monday.

All in all only 1 week break.

I'm actually praying hard for my results.

Over the last weekend, it was hell of an e'ffing good one, as well as an e'ffing disastrous one.

Shall not elaborate on that disastrous one. But it caused me to have bruises all over my arms and legs.

This is just one out of the many bruises I got. Damn.

What I've been up to over the last weekend?

Attending my final theory lessons listening to the instructor talk about super not funny on the road jokes.

Driving a manual car in the circuit for 2 hours learning how to

• find biting point
• change gear
• hand over hand turning which makes me feel as though my hands are gonna get tangled up
• step on the accelerator hard
• break smoothly
• making turns
• trying hard not to get the engine stalled

blah blah blah.

Overall, driving is FUN FUN FUN!!! And I DEFINITELY can drive a MANUAL car.

I can't wait to get on to the roads with my PDL.

Definitely EXCITING.

And And And!!! What else could be better than celebrating the end of exams?

With my Miss BiBi & Miss FaFa especially?

• excessively eating at Carousel
• shopping in town
• camwhoring where ever we went to
• chilling out and taking loads of photos
• waxing session
• super girly talks
• watching a super girly movie
• getting all excited about our childhood cartoon characters

Tell me about it!

Meet

Miss Love Miss Harmony Miss Cheer

=)

Sex And The City was great with FaFa. Too bad our dear BiBi Da Jie couldn't make it to catch it with us.

Well, at least the movie was great to us.

A super duper "Women" movie.

Friendship, Love, Marriage, Sex, Fashion, Louis Vuitton, Gucci, Chanel.....

I'm totally diggin' those wedding gowns that Sarah Jessica Parker wore for the photo shoot!

She's so beautiful and elegant in the movie!

And when Big decided not to marry her, oh god, that sucks lor. I'll kill the man if I were her.

Anyway both FaFa and I teared in the movie. Haha.

Oh oh oh... and anyway....

Although I'm super reluctant to change my Miss Pinky away....

I've got no choice but to do so, because she's too damn sick despite visiting the doctors (nokia care centre) for 5 times. Even after staying in the so called HEADQUARTERS of NOKIA for more than a month. She's still giving me the same problem!!! Auto restarting all the time on her own!! Sobz....

=(

So goodbye my lovely Miss Pinky.

And say "Hi" to Mr Smarty.

Thanks to daddy for sponsoring 50% of it.

Alright, still a boring post though. I'll be back with more pictures.

Perhaps later? Provided my "nua-ness" doesn't sets in.

Muahahaha!!!

could my own feelings be cheating on me?

i seriously have no answer....

i really hope i can answer that question i've been waiting for...

True love cannot be found where it truly does not exist

Nor can it be hidden where it truly does.....

itstheeightyseventhday

Randomish

theeightyfirstday

Exams are finally over.

JoJo's in desperate need for an external hard disk.

I'm obssesed with photography.

Can't wait to get my hands on an SLR.

No words could explain the amazing chemistry between us

A new addition to my bedtime companion.

Also not forgetting the big guy

I heart...........

damrpoohnmscheer

thesmellofustilllingersinme

itwontbelongtilillseeuagaincuztimeflies

itcouldbeatleastasevenhundrednthirtyovermoredays

watsmeanttobeurswillbeurswatsnotmeantobepursingitdungiveuresults

sometimesmovingonnlettinggoofthethingsulovetogettoeothersidestartswithgdbye

theeightiethday

tomorrow's last paper day.

its 3am. and i can't sleep.

i really don't know what to blog about anymore.

went for my jog, i almost faint in the bathroom while bathing.

i need rest.

how many more days can i countdown to?

ihadabaddreamlastnight

asusualuwereintherebutwithherandnotme

iwokeupwithtearsterrified

theseventyninthday

i suddenly realised i've lost my ability to blog.

i've got nothing much to talk about anymore.

basically just counting down every single day.

how long more? i seriously don't know.

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thingsareeasiersaidthendone

itriedmybestbutijustcantgetmaselfouttathefeelingofnostalgia

reminiscingthosespecialmomentsofours

theseventyseventhday

second paper was hell.

i'm praying hard.

hanging out with my darling & da jie was fun.

can't wait for thursday & saturday to come.

lifewoutustillgoesoneventhoughirealliwisheddatuwreheretosharemajoysnsorrowsitsokatleastistillhaveallthegoodtimeswesharedlllockedinmaheartimissthosesmilesnlaughtersinbtweenusthoseweredadays

theseventysixthday

first paper was a disaster.

hope monday's paper would be a better one.

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hopingthingsarenotwhatithinktheyare